We are in the second week of our Easter message series and we are beginning the second week of the Easter season. As a Church we continue to celebrate Jesus’ resurrection throughout April into May. Easter tends to be a cheery time of year as Winter yields to Spring and we experience the freshness of the season – the smell of cut grass, the sound of kids playing outside, the sight of flowers blooming and coming forth from the ground.
This Easter feels a bit different. We are living a very uncertain time. In the shadow of COVID 19 we do not know exactly how we are supposed to act. Interestingly, in that way it is very much like the experience of the first Easter season. The Apostles and early followers of Jesus did not wake up on Easter morning filled with confidence and hope for the future. Instead they were filled with fear and doubt and uncertainty. Their world had been rocked by Jesus’ death on the cross. Their hopes and dreams for the future were sealed with Jesus in the tomb. So they were very unsettled and disquieted much as we are today. They didn’t know what the future held.
But that mood changed through the course of that first Easter season. As they discovered the empty tomb and interacted with the risen Jesus, their mood and their perspective on life changed completely. As they came to faith in the risen Jesus, they renewed their sense of hope and confidence in the future.
Faith and hope go together. The deeper our faith in Jesus’ resurrection, the more hope we will have for the future. Faith is the foundation of hope. So over the course of this series we are looking at the early disciples and their accounts of how they came to believe in Jesus’ resurrection and the hope it gave them. We all need hope right now and the firm foundation for that is our faith in Jesus’ resurrection.
Over these weeks we are looking at passages from Scripture that can strengthen our faith and give us hope and confidence in the future. Today we are looking at a passage from the Gospel of John. It is chapter 20 – the same chapter we read last week.
On that evening of the first day of the week, where the doors were locked, where the disciples were, for fear of the Jews, Jesus came and stood in their midst and said to them, “Peace be with you.” (John 20:19)
So the time is the first Easter evening. Last week we read about John and his experience on Easter morning. Later that same night, John and other disciples or followers of Jesus were locked in a room. Much like us, they felt constrained. They had to stay inside. They couldn’t go outside because they feared the Jewish authorities who had had Jesus arrested and killed. Everyone knew they were Jesus’ followers so they feared they would be next.
As they were huddled together in fear and confusion, Jesus appeared to them. Jesus comes to be present to them in the midst of their fear and he offers what all of us need when we are afraid. He says, “Peace.” Our peace rests in Jesus’ resurrection. When he said this, he showed them his hands and his side. The disciples rejoiced when they saw the Lord. (John 20:20)
Jesus offers peace and then he shows them his hands and his side. He shows them the wounds he suffered on the cross. And when he showed them his wounds, the disciples rejoiced. They realized Jesus was not a ghost or a figment of their imagination. He was real. Throughout the resurrection testimonies, Jesus does very ordinary things – like eating and walking and talking – to show that he really did rise from the dead. Another piece of evidence for the resurrection is that groups of people saw Jesus. One argument against Jesus’ resurrection is that the disciples were all dreaming or hallucinating that they saw Jesus. But dreams and hallucinations are individual experiences. I would never say to you, “We had a great dream last night.” Or “We had the strangest dream last night.” A group of disciples saw Jesus not because they were hallucinating, but because he had indeed risen.
We are going to skip ahead a couple of verses. Thomas, called Didymus, one of the Twelve, was not with them when Jesus came. So the other disciples said to him, “We have seen the Lord.” (John 20:24)
Thomas was absent. Rather than stay with the other disciples he was out on his own. From some other passages of Scripture this seems to line up with Thomas’ temperament and personality. While the other disciples wanted to hang together during this time of confusion and uncertainty, Thomas probably wanted to be alone and sort things out himself. So he is not there to witness Jesus’ first appearance to the disciples as a group.
So the other disciples go to Thomas and excitedly tell him the great news that they have seen Jesus. Not only was their evidence that Jesus was risen because the tomb was empty, now they have all actually seen Him! And how does Thomas respond to this news?
But he said to them, “Unless I see the mark of the nails in his hands and put my finger into the nail marks and put my hand into his side, I will not believe.” (John 20:24-25)
He doesn’t believe them. Even though it isn’t just one person but a group of people that tell him. Part of that doubt was his personality. Thomas was naturally a skeptic and a bit of a pessimist.
But most of his doubt probably came from the hurt in his heart. We often think of doubt as an intellectual issue, but often doubt flows from our disappointments and hurts. On the day that Jesus died, Thomas had his heart broken. Thomas had put his hopes and dreams in Jesus. He believed Jesus to be a good man leading a good cause but had seen Jesus “lose”. He concluded that Jesus was powerless over the evil Romans and the corrupt religious authorities. They had had him arrested and taken away. They beat him up and nailed him to the cross, the most brutal form of execution. Everyone knew that Jesus had lost. What different conclusion was there?
The report of the resurrection gave reason to hope again. But Thomas had had his hopes dashed once, and he wasn’t about to get his hopes up again. His refusing to believe was a way to protect his heart from hoping again only to have it dashed. He was using his head to protect his heart. It was easier to disbelieve than to believe in the resurrection, because believing would have been too painful.
You might be in the same place right now. You have had some hopes dashed in these recent weeks, and so you refuse to believe any goodness is coming to you. Your hopes may have been dashed by the cancelling of Spring sports.. Your hopes may have been dashed by the loss of your job or business. Your hopes may have been dashed being unable to complete your senior year with friends and celebration. Your hopes may have been dashed as the result of a health scare. And so right now you doubt the goodness or power of God.
Tough circumstances like the ones we are facing now often make us doubt God’s goodness or power. The classic argument…. If God is all good and all powerful, then he wouldn’t allow any suffering. Since there is suffering, then God is either not all good or not all powerful.
We apply that argument to our hurts and pains. If God was good, he would have stopped this virus. If God was good, he would not have let the season be cancelled. If God was good then he would have intervened. If God was all powerful he would have done something to keep me from losing my business. Our doubt can lead to disbelief and to a lack of hope or confidence in God.
Thomas thought that if God was all good and all powerful, then He would not have let Jesus die on the cross. He would not have allowed Thomas go through the pain of seeing his friend and rabbi executed. So Thomas is afraid to believe because he doesn’t want to get his hopes up again.
Now to Thomas’ credit he doesn’t say he will never believe. He says he will only believe if he sees the evidence for himself. He sets the bar pretty high. He needs to see the nail marks of Jesus’ hands and put his hand into Jesus’ side.
Now a week later his disciples were again inside and Thomas was with them. Jesus came, although the doors were locked, and stood in their midst and said, “Peace be with you.” (John 20:26)
So a week goes by since the last time Jesus had appeared to the apostles. This would now be a week after Easter Sunday. Once again the group is inside, huddled and afraid. Eventually the early disciples became bold witnesses after seeing the resurrection, but it took some time and the coming of the Holy Spirit to move them out of their fear. Once again to this group that is so afraid, Jesus offers peace.
Then he said to Thomas, “Put your finger here and see my hands, and bring your hand and put it into my side, and do not be unbelieving, but believe.” (John 20:27)
Jesus comes to Thomas and offers him the evidence he wanted and asked for. In his love and mercy he doesn’t hold back from Thomas. He shows Thomas his hands and his side. Jesus invites him to see the wounds. The wounds are proof that he is risen. They bear witness to his victory over death. Despite the beating and the crucifixion, He rose victoriously. The wounds bear witness to his great love for us.
Jesus invites Thomas to explore the evidence. He challenges him not to persist in his current state of refusing, but to believe in the resurrection…. to move towards belief.
Thomas answered and said to him, “My Lord and my God!” (John 20:28a)
In meeting the resurrected Jesus, all of Thomas’ doubt and heartache melt away. He realizes that the crucified and risen Jesus is Lord. And Thomas personalizes it, “My Lord, My God.”.
When people come into the presence of God, their arguments and their reasoning for disbelief melt away. Sometimes even our reasons FOR believing melt away. The presence of God, a deep personal relationship with Jesus, can be that powerful. That happened to another St Thomas, St. Thomas Aquinas who was one of if not the greatest mind in Western civilization. At the end of Thomas Aquinas’ life, he had a personal encounter with God and he came to realize that all his arguments and reasoning for the existence of God were like straw in comparison. This does not mean it is not worth it to study and to apply reason. No, but those things are a means to an end to come to know God personally. The important end is to bring us into a relationship with God. And when you have that, how you got there really doesn’t matter, it is like straw in comparison to the greatness and glory of God.
The passage concludes in this way…. “Now, Jesus did many other signs in the presence of his disciples that are not written in this book. But these are written that you may come to believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God, and through this belief you may have life in his name.” (John 20:29-31)
John says that he has written his whole Gospel so that others will come to the same belief as Thomas – that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God. They will come believe and then come to have a better life.
The problem with the argument that if God was all good and all powerful then he wouldn’t allow suffering is that it is far too narrow. That argument fails to see the whole story. It focuses on one part of life, and makes it the whole. Yes, in life we experience setbacks and suffering, but there is more to the story than those setbacks. We need to see them in the context of the resurrection.
Jesus appeared to have lost when he went to the cross. The Romans and Jewish authorities thought they had won. But they were wrong. Three days later, Jesus rose from the grave. His suffering and pain were redeemed. Not only that, it turned out to be his greatest victory over sin and death.
So what do we do with this? First, I want to encourage you to lean into any doubts about God – explore the evidence, and seek to overcome doubts you may have about God. If you have questions or uncertainties about the resurrection, explore them.
Second, where have you had your hopes dashed during these recent weeks? How have they impacted your faith and trust in God? Name them and be honest about them. If they feel particularly deep, take 15 minutes this week to journal about them.
There is a scene from the movie, Apollo 13. Remember it was the movie with Tom Hanks and was about a second mission to go to the moon. When it becomes apparent that the mission has to be aborted and the lives of the astronauts are in danger, someone calls the whole mission a disaster. Then Ed Harris, who played the head of mission control. speaks up and says, “No sir, I believe this will be our finest hour.”
Finest hours often come in the wake of sufferings and defeats. This is why you can continue to put your faith and hope in God no matter the setbacks, defeats and losses of this time. Your wounds and hurts will be redeemed at your resurrection.
When we believe in Jesus’ resurrection and when we believe that we are connected to Him, we are able to see our sufferings and setbacks in a larger reality. We are able to see that they will be redeemed. Out of the ashes we can, and will, rise.